I Forgive You

I forgive you for the silence you become in the face of awkwardness, anger and emotions. I forgive you for sometimes abandoning me when I need you the most. I forgive you for that time when I was seven years old when you disappeared. I forgive you for not remembering the things you need to…

Child of the Darkness

When i was born my parents could not decide what to name me so they left it to my paternal grandmother. My maternal grandmother was not too happy about this, after all it was her daughter that carried this first child. I do not know why this part is relevant because my paternal grandmother got…

Body Worshipping

When the morning is being flawless, And your words are being perfect. I will curl myself up into a ball and remind myself Of the countless flawless mornings that ended up in Tear washed mascara and chipped nails. I will remind myself of burning eggs on a stove you thought was too expensive for a…

Vaginal Spears

I have heard that there are women in my mother’s village with spears for vaginas, My sister sees them in her dreams sometimes. These are the goddesses the universe forgot to speak about, The gods somehow neglected and Shoved under mats of male “gods” and saviors clothed in pants and penises. I have heard her…

i ask for belonging

sometimes you look at me with a particular kind of sadness in your eyes. and i know. i know i have failed you. but maybe it is you thinking you have failed me, wishing that you could have done more, said more, became more strict, more ruthless, maybe even more prayerful. i know you pray…

Smoking: My Rebellion

I started smoking at the age of nineteen. Not because I had a “bad” group of friends or because I was going through things in my life that could only be cured by tobacco. Of course my eventual “addiction” and regularity of smoking came as a result of things I thought would be cured by…